Try Me

So, i was dragged to the mall today=( i wasn't in the mood to shop, but i had fun anyway. went with a fifty, came back with a fifty...i hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas=D it was a good one for me, i think. very good, except for this stupid fake tree, but that's ok, we'll go shopping earlier next year. i decided on something i wanna do when i finally get a boyfriend!
ok, my parents and i were in Ashland right before Christmas after seeing a movie in Huntington, and Dad took us to see the lights in the park....it was MAGICAL! even though the southern lights totally kick those lights' butt, just the atmosphere of the park and everything was amazing... so yeah... i want him to take me walking in the park in Ashland with the lights during Christmas time=D i'd put more, but my comp. is messing up...
-Hannah

All My Wishes

It's cool that i'm awesome
And you think i'm really sweet.
I KNOW that i'm interesting,
And also pretty neat.
I know i can get crayzee,
But the thing is, you do too.
I want you to know that
I spend every wish on you.
From the first star at night
To the eyelash on my cheek,
From those rare shooting stars
To the pennies that i seek.
I make hundreds of wishes
And hope they come true.
Maybe just one hundred more
Will finally send me you.
And when my angel hears
My silly teenage prayer,
She'll laugh and say, "Alright,"
And then you will be there.
Til then, just think i'm cool,
And tell them i'm unique.
And know my wishes are for you...
A hundred every week.

-Hannah

Calm It Down

so, i've decided to share a few of my wishes with you people who ever so graciously read my blog(which i almost spelled wrongly just now)....okeedokee, you better brace yourselves:

i wish that some people would at least look on the brightside. i understand that sometimes you can only feel better after you've felt horrible...but there's no excuse for going on and on and on......it hurts the people around you. if you care about someone enough to let them hear how you're feeling, then i'm sure that person cares so much for you that those feelings hurt them as well. maybe what you're saying doesn't hurt their feelings, but the WAY you say them, and the anger and sadness expressed afterwords.....that's what get's 'em. they CARE about you. they LOVE you. if not, they wouldn't have sat there for 30 minutes listening intently to what you were saying.
i wish that when i actually am ranting(which doesn't happen often) and i feel miserable, or scared, or just plain silly, that people would stop telling me that they understand and they know "exactly" how i feel. when i feel sad, i don't want my friend telling me that they have felt that way before, because that makes me feel worse. i WANT to believe that i'm the only person in the ENTIRE WORLD that has ever felt that way. i want to think no one has ever had to go throught that feeling before. i don't need to hear that you know what it's like or that you have felt my feelings....because i don't want you to have.
i wish boys wouldn't be so rediculous. isn't it enough that we get up every daggon morning and try to look pretty for you people??? why do you have to make us feel so terribly about ourselves? why do you have to contradict every word that we say? can't you be a gentleman and make us feel good about ourselves? we don't want to have to feel like you may start talking about us as soon as we leave a room unless it's good....we don't want to have to contort our thoughts to align with your picture of a "perfect girl." Boys, wake up call:
girls are selfish, conceited, and(until proven otherwise)are self-dependent. we want you to love that about us...and we know we're difficult. why do you think we automatically blame ourselves if something goes wrong with one of you?
i wish that even if i AM the crayziest person you'll ever meet, the loudest, most obnoxious girl in history...the most uncoordinated, unfashionable, random 16 year old EVER.......you'll like me anywayz. you'll like me for my sometimes annoying laugh, and my extremely irrational fears, and my love for grape soda, and my obsession with anything lime green, and my need for plaid and argile prints, and....most of all.....for my never ending, everlasting, always growing, totally awesome LOVE for Disney. Yeah. it may be hard to believe, sir, but you will love that about me. and you'll even brag to your "buddies" that you are a Prince, and that you have a Princess named
-Hannah

WHAT THE CRAP???

yah, i say that...oh well. ok, my day did not start off very well at school today...AAAHHH!!! i was in first period Geometry and it was about the middle of the period, and i see a certain picture at a glance that happened to be a picture of something that i am almost deathly afraid of on a book that my seat partner had on his desk(let's name him Curly). so anyway, i turned the book over so that i wouldn't run the risk of looking at the picture again, and i told him i didn't want to see that. So he didn't really say anything, and he knew i was afraid of that certain thing that was on that picture, and i was thinkin, "oh, cool, he's gonna be nice and keep it outta my sight." but OH NO! CAN'T BE NICE NOW CAN WE??? when the class was over, i see curly hold something up AND POINT TO IT out of the corner of my eye, so (naturally) i turn to look at it right as he says, "Oh, Hannah, make sure not to look at this." he wasn't serious, btw...it was one of those things where they say it so that you look...but anyway, i look at it and THERE IT IS! that really scary picture, and this time i got the whole picture engrained into my brain instead of just a glance. and so i immediately get really angry...and, trust me, it takes a lot to get me as angry as i was at that moment....and i was like "Geez [Curly], why would you do something like that???" and he was smiling and laughing while i was almost in tears, and then he kinda patted my shoulder and was like "i'm sorry" YEAH, LIKE THAT'S REALLY GONNA CUT IT! and pushed his hand away and was like "uh, no, apology NOT accepted. there's no excuse for that!" so, yeah, i've been angry at him ALL day. then, to top it all off, in second period we watched a video that happened to have one of those things that was what the picture was of. Yeah, i'm not gonna say what it is, cuz i'm done telling people what my fears are, because all they do is pick on me. Even my own Dad does stuff like that, and i can't help but to be scared of it...why would you pick on someone for something they can't help? isn't that like bullying a cripple? it's not very nice....

But i had a good 3rd period, so that's a good thing=D i try not to dwell on stuff that long, but until he gives a lagit apology, i'm gonna be angry at him. That's just plain cruel.
-Hannah

One smile, and the world is yours.

My Fellow Americans...
haha, just kidding! yeah, so i'm liking blogging...it's like a diary, except other people can see it! very exciting. so i decided that today's blog would be a story...

Once upon a time(of course, every good story starts with once upon a time, duh.) there was a girl named Lily. Lily loved the Spring because of all of the fairies that peeked their heads from behind the colorful flower petals. She loved holding the secret of the existance of fairies, and felt that she had a special connection with them that no one else in the whole world had. Even though she never spoke to them, it was enough for Lily to know the fairies existed...To know that if ever she was sad, she could think of this secret and the smiling faces of the fairies that she had met so many times in her dreams, and be filled with warmth in her heart, and hope in her soul. Lily had always wished on every star and every eyelash that one day she and a fairy's paths would cross, and she would know what they were like. She knew the chances were very slim, but she still kept her hopes up.
It was the first day of Spring in the little town where Lily lived. This was the day Lily looked forward to the most out of all the days in the year. She knew that if she was to meet a fairy, it would be on this most beautiful day when the fairies awakened with the magnificence of the tree leaves and rose petals. Lily decided to take a walk through the meadow of goldenrods where she often sat down to think and make believe little stories in her mind that would introduce her to a fairy. As Lily was sitting in the grass, she looked up from her drawing book, and saw a figure in the distance approaching her. She was quite alarmed; she had never encountered another person in this meadow before. However, Lily stood up and was prepared to be the lady that she was, and be very kind to this stranger.
As the figure came closer, Lily realized that this was the most beautiful creature she had ever seen in her whole life. It was a boy, her age, who seemed all-smiles and who moved with such a grace that was almost inhuman. He reached her and stopped to smile at her. "Hello" he said with such eloquence that Lily momentarily forgot where she was standing.
"Boy..." Lily began, but her sentence was cut short. For at that moment, she looked up at the boy's face for the first time. Her eyes met his wondrous gaze, and all thoughts vanished from her mind. All sadness she had ever felt her whole life was forgotten. She felt as though she had been lifted into the air by pure emotion and would never come back down...she didn't want to come back down....She found her voice. "Are you...a fairy?" Was this the moment she had been dreaming of her entire life?
"I was about to ask you the same thing." he replied, "I guess we're just two strangers..." He wasn't a fairy? How could something so wonderful be real? Human? How could this exist? Lily had never been in the midst of something so beautiful, yet she was absolutely sure he was hers. She was his. They were the world, and that would never change. "My name is Daren, and you are?"
"Lily. My name is Lily." She spoke quietly.
"Miss Lily," Daren said as he took her hand and kissed it, never his eyes leaving hers. As soon as his lips touched her hand, Lily saw a quick small light in the corner of her eye. She thought she had imagined it, but then another, and another! Suddenly, she saw an entire group of green, purple, red, and yellow lights flying around her and Daren. Daren held both of her hands and pulled her close to him. He was smiling at her, and she could not believe her eyes! Her fairies! They circled around them with brilliant colors that reflected in his eyes...Then, she heard a low buzzing noise. A steady beat. Humming. A melody. The fairies were singing for her.
Daren released Lily's hands and bowed ever so elegantly. He held a hand toward her, and asked, "May I have this dance?"
Without a word, Lily placed her hand in his, and he took her waist as she took his shoulder. They danced in the goldenrod meadow while the sun was setting, underneath the dazzling light of the fairies, to their song. A song that needed no words. The beginning.


sorry i cut it a little bit short...it was much more elaborate in my mind... i like it though. comment me and tell me wutcha thing ;D
-Hannah

My Wish

I know you're out there somewhere
Wishing for me too.
You're praying for a soul mate,
And i'm praying for you.
You may feel all alone,
And I must say I'm the same.
Oh what i would give
Just to know your name.
Some people say it's silly
That a dream makes me smile,
But i can't help to think
You'll be here in a short while.
It's love at first sight,
As soon as our eyes meet.
Your sweet, gentle voice
Will lift me off my feet.
I will be your princess,
And forever you're my prince.
Heaven can't be too far,
Cuz I think I've seen a glimpse.
But I'm still waiting for you,
For that magical first kiss,
After which you'll know, and say,
"My love, you were my wish."

RAWR!!!

yes, RAWR is quite overused...but i like it=D ok, so i've officially seen Twilight 4 times, and I can already not wait until it comes out on DVD, so HURRY UP AND GET OUT OF THEATERS! alrighty, so i went to Cincinnati over thanksgiving weekend (after thanksgiving, of course) and i got to do this totally awesome convention thingy where you meet agents and stuff. i thought i did really well, but it seemed i did not get a callback. Fortunately, i'm a tough cookie, and it takes quite a bit to get me down. so, i still got to meet 4 of the agents, and i'll tell you if i get a call. oh yeah, btw, if you haven't already guessed, acting is my passion. my greatest dream has always been to be on DISNEY CHANNEL. i love that place! ok, yeah, so i figured i wouldn't get an agent right away. i mean, some people try to get into this business for YEARS before they ever get one, and they don't give up, right? so, i'm not going to...as long as i have some support. people don't think i'll make it, but i totally will. i'll show you! I WILL!

on a less light note, i just recently(as in the last 30 minutes) viewed some pictures which made me very angry. omg, ok, i knew it was going on and all that, but seriously....i didn't know it was this bad! i just saw a bunch of pictures of these stupid people that go to my school that were at a stupid party drinking...let's just say it's illegal for one thing....for another, it's COMPLETELY retarded!!! i mean, WHAT is so appealing about passing out in random positions, having someone draw on you...or worse...and then waking up a long time later with part of your life wasted away? i mean, i don't really know what is so attractive about someone that's drunk anyway! yeah, some girls and guys just date the other so they can "party" together. ok, just here to say that that is completely stupid. how do you know that those people are your friends if they're already using you as the punch line of their jokes???

which brings me to my next point(yeah, i'm on a role)...ok, there's this kid at my school, and he thinks he has all these "cool" friends. I'm not gonna say anything, which i prolly should, but i'm not gonna. THOSE ARE NOT YOUR FRIENDS!!! i literally witnessed them being jerks to him, and he still won't take a hint. i don't know, i guess it's cuz he's just hung out with that group for so long, that he doesn't know any better...but it still isn't right for anyone's "friends" to treat them that way...agreed? i mean, COME ON!!! and the WORST part about the whole thing is~~he's been hanging out with them so long, that he's becoming a jerk, even though he has such potential to be a good person...he just has stupid friends. ugh. i wish some people could just see the way i see the world for just one day. it would bring a new light to some things.

I'm not saying that i'm the next philosopher or anything, but i sure do know for a fact that i'm a GOOD PERSON. Everyone i meet knows that about me. i make mistakes, sure...but to er is human. and i'm definately human. But when someone is hurt by your actions multiple times, that's more than a mistake...that's heartlessness. let's try to do better shall we? maybe someone's watching^^^
-Hannah